Its been one month since I returned from my meditation retreat and its crazy how quickly real life kicks in and takes over. I had every intention to meditate twice a day, every day and it worked for the first few days and then waking up at 5:30am became harder (or i got lazier) and sleeping early got harder and then becofre I knew it there was no more time for meditation and lots of time for mundane energy sucking activities. Stop! Pause! Reality check! Compassion! Change is okay and even if it is a change in "the plan" , it is what it is so flow with it and before you know it things will be back on track. Nothing is perfect and who wants perfect when you can have a challenge that helps you learn and grow and reemerge. So yes this month has been full of change and readjustment and ofcourse self expectations that may not have been met but here I am with every intention to meditate and regain hold on my life instead of life taking over me. So this morning I meditated and explored once again the sensations, the very gross sensations that were painful and apparent, and after about 45 minutes I was done. The sensations did not all change but I accepted and moved on with my day. Change is hard, change is easy, change is change. You just gotta go with the flow... and enjoy the play of life, the leela.
Peace
